don't write yourself off yet
if you knew michael then you would understand why it's such a big deal to me that he talks to me now. i can't explain him so i wont try, but sometimes he can go an entire day without saying anything (or so it seems). he's the quietest person i've ever known i think, and that's saying something. different, yes. and i always wondered who he truly was on the inside. and whether or not i would have a chance to actually get to know him. fast forward to last night, after the fire in the guys' apartment. i was sitting on the couch with keri because i think she was still pretty upset (everyone was), and there's michael sitting on the floor in front of us. for just a minute i reached out my hand to put it on his shoulder...and he reached his own hand up and put it on top of mine. just for a minute, but i understand now why he doesn't talk. he doesn't have to. it won't tell you who he is. and if you watch him for long enough, then he'll eventually give you the chance to actually see him.what makes people who they are? because all the michaels in the world -- they make me wonder. i want to know people, and who they are and what they're thinking and how their hearts breathe.
does everyone (or anyone) remember prom last may and how we all went to mcdonalds for dinner and they wouldnt let us light the candles (but we did anyway haha)...and then there was that one song (i can't even remember what it was) but everyone was packing out the floor getting their dance on and ry and turtle and john practically dragged me out there. AND then they start getting all weird on me and dancing some crazy mother insane stuff. dude i was laughing so hard that i couldn't move. maybe things are changing. i can look back and remember how it feels to laugh on the inside too.
and it's all because of you.
i love you so very much.
*bex