as i walk through this valley of death... be with me now
my uncle is in the hospital tonight. nothing new, he's been there for about a month now. he has something drastically wrong with his liver, and on top of that, some cancer developed, so he became sicker and sicker. for the longest time now he's been waiting for a liver transplant, and they finally found a liver for him, just tonight.so he's about to go into surgery any time now, a surgery that takes from 7 to 11 hours. a surgery that he has a 50-50% chance of surviving. and he's been treated for the cancer, but if they open him and find that the cancer is still there, they won't be able to give him the liver. so many things could go wrong...
but what's running through my head is my uncle billy, and what it is that he's facing at the moment. because to know that you're going to be drifting off to sleep for awhile and that there's a large chance that you may never wake up again... how scary could that be? and even if you know your Savior and you're ready to go home to Him (because i know my uncle is), you're still human and you still have to walk through that valley of death before you can find life again, whether it's life here on earth or life home in heaven. surrounded by your family and knowing that they know and you know that you may never speak to each other again on this earth... uncertain of what's to come... clinging to the peace of God that's your only hope now... seeing your entire life playing through your head and wondering if this is the end of it... i can only imagine.
i'm trying to be strong here. i'm crying out for the life of my uncle, crying out for peace to be poured out upon him, and upon his family. i'm holding on to the promise of life -- not necessarily as we see it, but life beyond what we know -- and waiting for an answer to my prayers. reaching out, i know that God is good, He's in control. He will not forsake His children.