you have no idea

i'm so tired of your lies. i am, for lack of better words, really really tired of them. this is so pathetic. and i am trying, i'm doing all that i know to do for you but you don't get it. everything is justified in some way or another. it almost makes me angry.

it's pathetic -- that's all. i can't think of any other word that fits this.

i am tired and your actions hurt and you make me want to cry, but i won't. i'll put up with things as i always do.