she refused to let common sense cloud her judgment
went to the doctor yesterday. no more dr. walker for me, this is dr. hillner, who is really the greatest out there. too bad he's only general practice and not psychiatry or i would never have to see anybody else. i don't have another psychiatrist yet, it's so hard to get in with one around here. debbie suggested some woman doctor who's pretty new in town, partly because she's a woman (and therefore less likely to be...well you know...perverted), and because she's new, which means she's probably not booked until this time next year yet. anyway. so it will be awhile before i can get in with a psych and find one i like and stuff.in the meantime, i'm back on meds. paxil again, depakote again (only a much higher dose of it for some reason), and ambien to help me sleep. the paxil was free because dr. hillner had enough samples to last me awhile, but the ambien and depakote for the next 1-2 months was a little over $170. my mum was very unhappy about this, which makes me feel really bad. she was especially unhappy about the ambien, since she feels that i should be able to sleep "if i really try." ahh well, that's ok.
at least she didn't yell about it or anything.
the only bad thing is that i've got that feeling that all of these meds are going to really knock me out for the next few days, maybe even longer. and i really don't want to be falling asleep in school and i really don't want to be falling asleep at the five iron concert on friday. but we'll see about that when it gets here.
joy is going to homecoming on saturday and i know she's going to look beautiful, just like she did last year at prom. but i need to remember to take pictures this time. and, who knew that john has a split personality? what's more, who knew that this personality was named Hilda? you learn something knew every day huh.