so once again honesty fails
forgive me, it's just that i don't have the strength to be real right now.you find me sometimes hyper and crazy like this -- more and more like i used to be -- but now it only makes me wonder. am i laughing becuase i'm truly happy or simply in order to escape crying? maybe it doesn't even matter.
thinking of you makes me smile, regardless of these seemingly million miles standing between us. because for those rare and fleeting moments when i grasp a trace of a memory of happiness, you're always part of it.
if you're reading this, then i'm speaking to you. come be near me; i need you so much.
and i just wanted to say how much i love you.
*bex