letters i'll never write
today stretches on forever. colors and lights streaming from this TV do little to hide my tears. hopelessness chokes me as i try to fight it but it's the pain that haunts me. and i'm not your little girl anymore. i don't run to you for safety from these monsters the way i used to. forfeit this bond between us because i can't let you know me. you can't touch what lies beneath my surface. i so desperately need you to love me. it is this guilt that drags a razor across my heart, and i see no grace in your eyes. feel the cold in your lack of touch. watch this distance growing between us. and if i had been born perfect would you still rock me to sleep at night? if i weren't here would you smile and say you love me?