that's not what i said and i bent over backwards just to speak

one more day closer to my appointment with the shrink (tomorrow).

one more day of uncertainty. one more day of self-loathing. one more day of trying. one more day of striving, crying, hoping for something beyond this.

one more day of praying desperate prayers.

one more day of classes.

one more day of being loved and yet somehow never quite believing that i am.

one more day of loving you.

it's today and that's alright, it's over now and i can't reclaim it. farewell to regrets and things past for tomorrow comes again.

last & next