plasticity
under twenty thousand tons of brick and stoneshe carries all the weight of her own world
but somewhere deep inside
beneath the cartilage and bone
beats the battered heart of one little girl alone
she is sweet, like sugar
but she is bitter like the broken sugar pot
Dad says that she could be anything she wants to be,
she only sees what she is not
disbeliever, underachiever
disconcerted with the way things look from here
disinclined and disinterested
nothing in your world seems clear
disbeliever, underachiever
don't you shed another tear
little sister, broken heart resistor
it's not like that over here
with the Blanket of Security
and the mighty force of her own will
treading water in her pink pajamas
she is treading water still
hopelessly hopeless
and she is swimming
further into the sea
thinking she's substandard
while all the while
she is beautiful to me
she is strong and silent
she is blunt and shrewd
she thinks that nobody loves her
if she only knew
how much we all have missed her
we are praying for you, my little sister.--bravesaintsaturn
i have shut this so deep inside that there's a good chance you'll never find it. all the words you can't erase and it hurts, things you have no right to say and sometimes they're so stupid that even i know you don't mean them. but you go on saying them nonetheless. last summer when we were at the beach and we were staying in that little room together, one night i came in and you were lying on the bed crying so hard that i wanted to cry too. and i asked you what was wrong but you shook your head because you didn't know how to say the words and all i could do was promise that i love you. you're so much more like me than you think you are; we both hold things inside till we break, only for me they end up coming out in sadness and for you they come out in anger. so so angry and i want just for you to be happy although i know it's not that easy and i'm sure i'm a part of what makes you so upset. my face still stings from where you hit it and that made me angry if nothing else ever has but the look in your eyes made me cry instead. i want you to be ok. i want more than anything for you to know that i love you but i'm not sure you believe me...