ex nihilo, nihil fit
TODAY = ELEVEN MONTHS FOR JOHN AND ME!in response to something written in my guestbook: yes, insanity can indeed become a god of sorts. it is the same as any other comfort one turns to, be it drugs, promiscuity, alcohol, pornography, etc. not only that, but also it is an addiction. in that way if you do not break loose, you are controlled by it, you are chained to it, you are infatuated with it and -- to be brutal -- although you mind, part of you does not. this is not to say, however, that every person can simply flip a switch in his head, or wake up one morning and say to himself, i'm through with this, and actually be rid of it; it is not anywhere near so simple. addiction would not be called such if it were so easily gotten rid of. some people, though i don't claim to be one of them, have no choice as to the mental state of their health, and anyone denying this has much to learn about life. on the other hand, some people have perhaps not a complete choice, but some choice nonetheless, as to their measure of sanity/insanity. i am one of these people. i say this choice is incomplete because insanity is often like any other sickness: you cannot always control it. when you come down with the flu, no one shouts at you for being that way. likewise, most people who are ill in this mental way don't choose to become so at the onset. but it's the addiction that keeps you there. it's the comfort and the feeling (though false) of safety that ties you down, and that of course is always something you have a choice toward. so i say again: insanity in itself is not always a choice, and therefore not always wrong, but declining to leave it when you have the chance -- therein lies the choice. maybe this doesn't apply to you. i speak only in the general sense of it all.
it's 10:45 and i've just finished an essay on Kant's objection to St. Anselm's Ontological Argument for the existence of God, so my mind is awake. (if you really want to think about something and think long and hard until your neurons are fried, try studying philosophy of religion.) i have two more essays to write, so everyone dream sweet for me tonight!
"you're never happy with what you've got..."