off the wagon
it's just one of those days -- again."they're my reasons for getting over this, and it's not much better than waking up with your head in your hands when your arms are tired from supporting you." -- the getupkids
today i reach for something to get me through it all. there are only so many things i can turn to. and i don't want to live each day "getting through it all" as if there were some reward for doing so. today only comes once, and yet here i am trying to merely survive it.
today i miss you, goodness knows i miss you so much, and today i feel so far away. feel so lonely though i am trying to fight it.
i'm sorry, i don't really have the words to say right now.