downsizing
we had a staff meeting last night, the first one of the year. oh gosh, it was eternally boring. like so boring that i can't explain it. we watched a film on skin cancer. talk about trying to keep yourself from falling asleep. and then for 2 hours we went over all the rules and info that i feel like i've heard countless times before. anyway thank goodness that's over. i love the job, just not these little "staff meetings." turtle is going to be a WSI with me this summer and that will make it even more fun.anyway, i'm back to dieting. i'm going to lose 15 lbs. debbie-the-therapist said she thinks i can do it, which was nice of her....when i was 12 or maybe 13, i weighed probably about 10 more lbs than i do now. i was 5'6 like i am now (tall for a 12 year old), and i wore a size 7. back then it seemed normal, but now it sounds huge. since then i've lost some weight and now i wear a size 3, sometimes a 5. i don't want to be extreme again, not like i used to be, i just want to lose some weight. and there's even more pressure now that i'm getting back to my job; unless you're a WSI, you don't know what it's like to spend 6-8 hours in a swim suit every day. if you don't like the way you look, well it's kinda too bad when you're wearing a swim suit.
"do you realize how much you think about yourself?"
no, i guess i don't.
i'm sorry, i don't feel like talking right now.
xoxo