wednesday wednesday lalala

i've been surviving on coffee and minimum amounts of sleep, spending literally hours hunched over stacks of books. you know how you get to the point where you're so tired of studying that you just want to take the test -- it doesn't even matter if you do horribly as long as it's over with? that's how i was feeling at about 3:30 today. anyway i went and took my anatomy test soon after and now i don't have to worry about any major studying till next week. =)

tonight i had the chance to spend a little time with angela. it was good just talking for awhile and catching up on things, hearing how she's doing... and then the two of us and andrea went over to mark's to spend some time praying together. man it was such an awesome time together. there were only five of us there but it was such a powerful time of worshipping God and just crying out to Him on behalf of people and of ourselves. lately God has been impressing on my heart all that He has done for me. last week in the Old Testament study i'm in, we read these verses:

"And the word of the LORD came to him: "What are you doing here, Elijah?" He replied, "I have been very zealous for the LORD God Almighty. The Israelites have rejected your covenant, broken down your altars, and put your prophets to death with the sword. I am the only one left, and now they are trying to kill me too." The LORD said, "Go out and stand on the mountain in the presence of the LORD, for the LORD is about to pass by."

Then a great and powerful wind tore the mountains apart and shattered the rocks before the LORD , but the LORD was not in the wind. After the wind there was an earthquake, but the LORD was not in the earthquake. After the earthquake came a fire, but the LORD was not in the fire. And after the fire came a gentle whisper. When Elijah heard it, he pulled his cloak over his face and went out and stood at the mouth of the cave..." (1 Kings 19:10-13)

no matter how many times i read those verses, i'm always touched by the fact that so many times, God appears in ways that we least expect. many times i'm sitting around waiting for something huge to occur, for some definite sign that God loves me and is present, when all the while He is speaking -- if only i have the ears to hear! chris tomlin sings a song that says "what a wonderful Maker/ what a wonderful Savior/ how majestic Your whispers/ and how humble Your love/ with a strength like no other/ and the heart of a Father/ how majestic Your whispers/ what a wonderful God." that last part -- "how majestic Your whispers/ what a wonderful God" -- is a prayer that the Holy Spirit has been putting on my heart today. i pray that my eyes would be opened and my heart broken that i'll be able to hear these whispers of God, and this is my prayer for all of you too.

tonight we prayed for two very special girls i know. cheryl is a friend of mine from homegroup and has only recently become a Christian. she's been through so much in her life, and has been abused so much by her family that it's left visibly lasting scars. before she came to know God, satan had such a huge foothold in her life, and even though now he has no power over her, i can see how he is trying to fight for any way in which he can affect her. when i'm with cheryl it's so obvious to me that she desires to be loved -- to have the kind of family and safety in the church that she has never found in her own family. and yet satan somehow takes this desire and twists it in her mind into all sorts of evil schemes to affect her. i know she's heartbroken and confused and really needs God to come through for her... the other girl we were praying for is megan, a friend of my younger sister's. she's a junior in high school and is such a cool person, but lately she's started going to a "Christian church" that very openly promotes homosexuality and other things which the Bible clearly is against. although this church calls itself Christian, it also claims that the Bible is a "good guide" but nothing more and always open to interpretation. i don't think megan is a Christian but is simply looking for a place in which she can find acceptance. there's such a danger there that satan may be able to affect her through this church which preaches lies and calls them truth. she's so young and for now she is only receiving a warped image of God and the true church of believers. if you are reading this, please take a minute right now and just pray for these two ladies. they're both so precious and sweet but are obviously hurting and in need of love that can only come from the true and living God. i know that these things are in no way impossible or even difficult for God to accomplish, since He has established the power to conquer death and satan through Jesus Christ.

man i'm so tired that i'm seeing spots... time for some sleep. i love you guys!

(annie how are you love? i haven't talked to you in forever. i miss you!...)

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